Monday, March 29, 2010

Boat Propeller Design Blueprints

metacomet1102 @ 2010-03-30T07:03:00

2 years ago today my mother called me to tell me that my beloved grandmother is Rosie passed away. It seems like yesterday. I miss you very much, Grandma.




The only important thing in life
are the traces of love left
we go when we
. ~ Albert Schweitzer


Sunday, March 28, 2010

Metal Dog Runs For Sale

metacomet1102 @ 2010-03-28T18:14:00

are the 3 free days rum. From tomorrow starts the treadmill again. 3 early shifts, 7 nights. The 3 free days brought zero recovery. 4 Machine wash, all purchases for the next 10 days, cleaning. Even the window I was cleaning. Could hardly see out. The reward: a stiff neck. Now I'm sitting her since yesterday with hot cherry seed bags in the back and hope that it will be up tomorrow better. So I can not work properly. But I will not celebrate sick again. Liv the abscess is only 4 weeks ago.

My mother and my brother make plans on how to induce me to give up this awful apartment. Both know that I have no money. Their latest idea: my brother bought a condo around here and I will be tenants. He will have to create capital. Do not know what to make of it. Perhaps the only way to get out of this hole. I want my brother does not have as a landlord. Since the problems are inevitable.

shit money! I wish I could live on my salary to some extent, but which is increasingly difficult. Every year I renounce everything and still can barely cover running costs. The last holiday was 92nd ... unbelievable.

I know not as it should go with me. I also will not try every day to work reasonably, if only because of my cats. You are my joy. More is not there, which I could look forward to. I am grateful that they are there. People I do not trust you. In the last 3 years I have made too many bad experiences. Again and again tried to make friends, but my friendship will not. My heart is like a cemetery, as many people in it, which I think a day full of love, but none of them I mean even the slightest. None of them would miss me, as I miss them every day. NO MATTER! Not to change. Enough whining. Concentrate from functioning, Marion.

Monday, March 22, 2010

Covering Letter In Dentistry

metacomet1102 @ 2010-03-22T17:19:00

Man has tried to poison me .... sounds unbelievable, but true. I'll always be my coffee cup with a coffee in the rest LGS4 before I go into the LGS8. I drink when I'm back around 1:30. Yesterday I did not come until 2:00 to do so because I had earlier in the MA. It tasted very strange .... bitter and slightly acidic. Since I had not noticed anything and also use powdered milk, so it could not leig it, I was suspicious. At first I thought it would be in my perception, and took another sip. Then I blended it with cocoa, because I always paused in the basement. The taste was strange. For comparison, I drank a cocoa pure, because I still thought it was up to my perception. The taste but normal ...... and then I suddenly realized that during my absence, someone had to have done anything in my cup. I immediately tried to break open the already drunk, succeeding only partially. Half an hour later, I got terrible heart palpitations, nausea, and depressed consciousness. I managed only with great effort and willpower to "work" more. I informed my colleagues about my discomfort Team 2 and went down to my department where I hindämmerte for several hours before me. Thank God no one has reported after 2:00. First Gen. 5:30 left the racing heart, the dizziness and nausea for something. Took taxi home and fell into bed right there.

Probably Kathy Klasen and Sabine or Libor, that I had recently several ugly confrontations, my things in the coffee (drugs, drugs?) Done to obliterate me one. Evidence I will never, although I can the rest of the coffee was frozen.

strange is that I, though I was miserable, I at no time Afraid. I even thought phased blurred in my clouded thinking that it would be good if everything would end. Without sadness, fear or emotion ...... just a little worried about my cats, but determined to Birgit would have taken good.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Laser Eye Surgery - Driver's License Ontario

metacomet1102 @ 2010-03-17T04:08:00

My two favorite tenors with one of my favorite arias. Had in mind when I awoke. I always dream with music. has

Monday, March 15, 2010

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Freundschaft - Amitié - Friendship

a subject I am very beschäfftigt, the highest priority in my life. One of my favorite shows "philosophy" It focuses on species with philosophical issues:




Saturday, March 13, 2010

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metacomet1102 @ 2010-03-14T05:19:00

Only now and then begins a new 10-day week. 3 early shifts, then 7 nights, then again only 3 days off. And so it goes on. No end in sight. Like a machine. So I feel also. No time to make friends or to do something. Not even time for a walk. The 3 days between services hardly reach to all shopping, doing the laundry, to undertake consultations and to clean the apartment. This constant money worries and a body that no longer works. Enough whining. I still have a job, a warm home to eat, enough. For this I should be grateful. I am also thankful for my cats. I am looking forward to it when I get home. They accept me the way I am. They do not care that I will always ugly. Sometimes I wonder if they would look for another home if they could, whether they are happy with me. You have no choice. They have only me.

A has sent an email. I do not answer. Why? She has no time really for me. I need to understand the finite. No one wants my friendship. Contact non-binding, some small talk, but nothing beyond that. No interest in talking to me. Still no Skype installed. I have no home.

Vereinsamt (Friedrich Nietzsche)

The crows scream
drag and whirring wings to Town:
Soon it will snow -
Happy the man who now has homes.

Now you're standing rigid,
look back, oh, how long, what are you fool

fled before winter in the world?

The World - a gateway to a thousand
deserts dumb and cold;
who lost, what you have lost
, nowhere does halt.

Now you're standing pale,
cursed the winter wandering,
the smoke the same, always looking for
the colder skies.

Fly, birds, buzzing
your song in the desert bird sound.
hiding, you fool,
your bleeding heart in ice and scorn.

The crows scream
drag and whirring wings to Town:
Soon it will snow -
Woe to him who has no home.





Tuesday, March 9, 2010

What Are Good Toys For A Sugar Glider

metacomet1102 @ 2010-03-09T15:58:00

In the last two nights I've rediscovered the magic of poetry. At the station I bought a small book with 100 poems spring. The most I am aware of already, but it's like really good music ..... the more you hear it (yes, I always read poems aloud), the more magical they are. There are also several Rilke poems here. My "Rilke" phase I had with my early twenties. It's nice to discover these masterpieces of painting and phonetic verbal symphonic compositions again. One of my favorite poems by him is this:

I'm so scared in front of the word of men

I'm so scared in front of the word of men.
talk everything out so clearly:
And this dog is and that means house
and here is the beginning and the end is there.

me fears and their sense, their game with the taunt,
they know everything that is and was;
no mountain is more wonderful to them;
their garden and property is adjacent grade to God.

I always want to warn and Stay away: defend.
The things I hear singing so much.
your touches on it: they are rigid and silent.
You bring me all the things.

(Rainer Maria Rilke)

I'm so scared in front of the word of men → I am so afraid of the word of man


Saturday, March 6, 2010

Men Wetdreams Movie Clip

metacomet1102 @ 2010-03-07T04:48:00

Only 1, 5 hours until closing time. Am very tired today and just write so here to keep me awake. Part of the S service work has been forgotten, so I had to take off early. KK has made the cell phones at 00:05 in team 2 .... According to Silke.

Last night, Bill was there. Finally! She gave me a beautiful Teeekanne as a thank you for my Einkauferei during her illness. In a cup cocoa we chatted for an hour and then they drove me to work. Moritz has also enjoyed their visit very much.

Yesterday, I was a nice experience after work. I was forced to take me because of the renewed onset of winter a taxi (or for hours at the station waiting for the bus). Unfortunately, the FNT tickets are valid only until 6:00 and so I have at 6:05 closing time and may leave the house at 6:10 at the earliest. The taxi driver was kind enough to accept FNT still a ticket and gave me his Telnummer so I can call him directly in similar situations. He said that he knows how to earn some nurses. So there are still nice people. Ironically, his name is D'Angelo. And he really was an angel for me.



Operation For Weak Bladder

metacomet1102 @ 2010-03-06T16:08:00

two night guards are done, 5 are still to come. To my horror, I have all nights KK as a colleague. Horror!. The trouble was going on yesterday, already, some of the work because they do not wanted to do in your module. The Reason: they would otherwise not be able to go as usual half an hour earlier. She is used, its service at 23:45 ~ held as scheduled and required to 00:15. They would not otherwise reach their tram. Yesterday, I even looked up: it drives a car at 0:29, which would ideally suit their real service end. You do not even write negative hours on it. Yesterday, they clamored around me to do their work in the LGS 8, under my also add that I would have changed the planning module (which I did not). When I was at 22:55 on the way to TNP, I saw them for Stop going. Before and after the handover, she was whispering permant with L at 21:30 and then disappeared for now. The two bully me where they can. Regardless, my chest hurts less and the work is now easier.








Wednesday, March 3, 2010

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metacomet1102 @ 2010-03-03T22:46:00

Today was a lot easier, contrary to expectations, as of yesterday. A few things fell off of my modules, as if my prayers God heard yesterday. I said I also shift supervisor, that it must in future be a fair distribution of work. He said that the last module plans J wrote PDL. Well, after that I was clear why I had to show off so, while others (eg KK) at 8:00 had nothing to do. It will make my life more as hard as possible, but I bear a lot.

H I hit short. He's currently free. Has done well to see an honest face. From tomorrow, 7 night guards. With God's help I will make this somehow.

A has again written to me and sent me one of her fanfics. This makes me very happy. Today was a good day.




head high, dancing


arises where the sense of technology
Where machine is feeling

What is the opposite of skeptical
Unbalanced Why is pretentious
Why we fall in trouble
Ingenieursein is not glamorous

Oho, head high, dancing
Oho, head of and out

How deep are deep feelings
who reminds you, if you forget
Where you sit on the fence
And why I always

Protect your soul in front of sellout
And you raised the best is not accessible to the end of

Why have dreams no credit
And where is this all about for fun
How to be in no condition
As you cry a tear for

Oho, head high, dancing
Oho, head out and out

Protect your soul in front of sellout
And you raised the best is not always to a final

Why does one mistake even twice
And souls are only used and not immediately
Why does your smile just because you kiss extra
so wonderful German, even goes

How do you the course of events
wishes you hang relaxed half high
As you wrap around your finger
And fate loves you but

Oho, head high dance,
Oho, head out and out

Make the head from
Do not worry yourself to dance, come

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

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metacomet1102 @ 2010-03-02T19:13:00

My first working day following the illness. On the way to work I had a feeling of uneasiness to the limited physical nausea. And then it got even worse than feared. 'm From 5.45am (yes, I've started earlier Idiot) geschufftet to 11:30 non stop by without any break. And tomorrow's modules looks even worse. How to make broken people. My colleagues were already partially completed at 9:00 of those too. The biggest joke was that KK was shift manager today. They probably call the goat for a gardener to make.

J. asked me but actually how I feel. I told her. I can not do the job much longer. 'm Already completely gutted. But at my age I better be happy at all to have work. There are no alternatives.

hammering my chest hurts. Best to take ne pain pill and go directly back to bed. The alarm clock rings at 3:00 again.



I often think about that boy when I'm feeling small And I worry that
the work I do means nothing at all

But every single tear I cry is a diamond in His hands
And every door that slams in my face, I will offer up in prayer

So I'll give you every breath that I have
Oh Lord, you can work miracles
All that you need is my "Amen"

So take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small

I trust in you
I trust in you

Monday, March 1, 2010

Mara Orthodontic Appliance

metacomet1102 @ 2010-03-01T11: 11:00

Z urück vom Verbandswechsel. Hat ganz schön weh getan, aber das hatte ich erwartet nach 2 verbandslosen Tagen. Morgen beginnt wieder der Ernst des Lebens und ich fürchte me a little. Hope I'm the demands of work has grown.

A. emailed again yesterday. She says that she likes to talk with me. On the other hand, it has the only chance to speak with me (Skype) installed not even on her new laptop. A. like Facebook is not so well because I can not speak to me with her. She has no time for the things I post there. But she wants to keep talking and writing with me .... lol. I wrote back that they do not because I need to see FB. I mean it. Would it be really interested in me and my activities would now and then to A. look my Wall. A's fanfic I'll probably never get.

Why do I always agree with people in my heart that I am basically completely indifferent?