"The cycle of life!"
of me All life is one big circle. Man is born, goes through different phases and finally dies.
What I've been going through a phase I really do not know. I am now with my parents no longer clear especially with my father. We actually have a day dispute. Recently he has come up that I would work for him in construction, since I now have holidays.
right I have holidays!
"holiday" comes from the Latin of Feria (= holidays, festivals). With holiday periods are referred to, in which includes a body fully to their families, other activities, in particular to provide recreation. They can be distinguished from vacation, the only individual members of the institution is granted.
Unfortunately my father was not quite understood the meaning of my vacation. I know dozens Schlüer make in that Summer, summer jobs etc. But I have to admit nunmal also that I can use in recent times by all the audits some rest and I have to get out what to do go a little celebration, so the make, do what people my age Sun Meanwhile, I am fed up every morning at 6.30am and work until 22:00 clock and get reprimanded for it yet, if I make a mistake or a wet handshake. I would say nothing if I money would get but that is but the total exploitation insklusive blackmail, because if I did not do what my father wants, he threatens me, I throw out or thinks of other things that he knows that I need this.
Welcome to my life with a asshole whose educational methods come from the Middle Ages.
repays itself in me makes the thought more and more wide that I should flee. I should take something I dare not turn around and all the people that leave me to ruin.
What keeps me? So what I'm waiting for my decision for me is actually already fixed. I have looked at sites in Berlin. I could do my internship at a record label, I would have something to do with the music. Well maybe I'm naive, because I think that this is all very easy and you can do it. Thus, under the slogan, I'm doing an internship and will be uncovered.
:-) I could loot my account which I determined I could take in a flat one room and live like this for a while. At night I was working at a club. That would all go smoothly for my imagination.
What keeps me here are my friends, "Y" and probably the fear of uncertainty and the fact that when I go, I can not come back for me personally. It would be a shame for me when I get to a few months back would have to be home.
That's the moment of greatest conflict that I have and the decision is fast approaching. I believe in horoscopes and in my annual horoscope says that I will make a decision in July, the rest of my life will affect, whether positive or negative.
I also think I've fallen in love or that I'm with you. It is not Andy, because that is now taboo for me. But he is also a musician playing in a band but not the same as me. It fascinates me. If I spend my time with him everything is always so easy before. He has the same Optimissmus like me, because he thinks that there is nothing in the world that could not reach it. His laugh is something magical and I would like to spend every day with him and explore his life. He's 2 years solo, I have no idea why. Yesterday I had a drink with him in Schlüchtern, he comes from Neuhof. It was funny he has me a SMS sent, asked what I do, that he wants to go straight with a few mates drink and if I do not feel like mitzukommen.Ich would see him on thursday, for he is rehearsing with "Y" or a part of "Y" because we want to do on Saturday ne extra lap, so it is also clear that the right here which I describe in Härte7 plays. :-) he is electric guitarist. \u0026lt;--- A new passion for me, the world of electric guitarists
:-) Well, and he asked me if I do not want to go along on Monday with him and a few mates to a Soulflykonzert. He wants to burn my CD's so I do not hear so much Hip Hop: -.) Yes, he is sweet. And we have already kissed, but not really that was so out of our potable spirits on the penultimate weekend. Well, then I totally screwed up Andi has the tour with his jealousy number last week.
He is a sign her cancer is not just simple people, but also very attractive. :-) And since I somehow love the danger he is totally in my booty framework, because I think I need it really wrapped around my finger, so it is certainly not an easy battle, but I do love challenges. :-)
was small when I, I imagined that I would be famous. I was a eflogreiche singer and actress. The funny thing is that my whole life I've spun with 13 years together is becoming a reality. in my mind I had no contact with my parents because they never have interested me and the men were tja a pure disaster. In my mind I'm unseated from one relationship to another. In my mind I'm in Berlin and have been since discovered. Something weird that I am now 7 years later and still mature at the same think, and still stuck in the same situation. Maybe that's not such a childhood dream but my fate. Who knows. I can only find out if I dare. I also had
always in my mind no more contact with my past, because I never wanted the people out of envy or greed any Tell stories about me. And in my mind only knew all that I left for Berlin, but no one knew what I was doing there, and was as famous then, I saw, of course, also quite different. Aufjedenfall I have in my childhood dream achieved everything I wanted and perhaps as silly as it sounds, which is in reality. Would be nice at least.
I think if people do not know me read my journal and this text, I think probably they have not all. A bit of law.
This is my life cycle, and if someone has an idea how should I make up my mind or has a proposal that he can safely say, maybe help me what.
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